Stuck In The Pattern  

“Stuck in The Pattern” investigates selfhood and an internal battle between memory, intuition, and emotion after breaking up with my partner of eight years. 

      Still reeling in the aftermath of long term gaslighting, I have trouble discerning what is reality versus figments of my imagination. Is memory a reliable source of information? I was stuck in a “pattern” that felt inescapable.

      Inspired by Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s The Yellow Wallpaper, where being “stuck in a pattern” is explored literally, my self portraits intend to blur the foreground with the background to express how easily surroundings shape my sense of self. I tend to be uncertain as to what are feelings versus what is actually happening, and if those can overlap. I am the foreground, both in the images and in life, and reality is the background.